Thursday, June 22, 2006

So very true!!!

"Science may have alleviated the miseries of disease and drudgery and provided an array of gadgetry for our entertainment and convenience, but it has left us in a world without wonder. Our sunsets have been reduced to wavelengths and frequencies. The complexities of the universe have been shredded into mathematical equations. Even our self-worth as human beings has been destroyed. Science proclaims that Planet Earth and its inhabitants are a meaningless speck in the grand scheme. A cosmic accident.”

Dan Brown. i guess most of the readers of his books likes what he writes. recently (ok.. shame shame to me that i read it sooo late) i read his book "Angels & Demons". that is one of the best books i've read till date. a science VS religion fiction. The above paragraph is taken from the same novel. i loved the para. it is sooooo nicely put.

i mean imagine that you are looking at a huuuuuuuugggggggeeeeeeee mountain. beautiful. surrounded by clouds. ice capped. and imagine a beautiful blue sky in the back ground. imagine some small waterfall emerging from it... wonderful, isnt it?
and now imagine the same mountain as a cluster of molecules and atoms with beautiful protons and electrons and neutrons. imagine the water as individual molecules of H2O
doesnt have the same effect, right??

that it. small post. actually i want to write a lot more about it but i am not getting the exact words.

Tuesday, June 13, 2006

where do you see yourself five years down the lane?

Warning: i am in a very very very "crib-about-everything-especially-my-job-mood"..
and i am feeling hungry and sleepy... so i may not have the same opnion once these basic, bottom of the Pyramid Maslow's needs are satisfied...

i really dont know what i am doing these days.. life hs become sort of mundane.. nothing wrong with it actually.. it is my belief that our life's biggest challenge is to make this mundane life as exciting as possible... getting up in the morning and deciding how to face the day is up to us...
but suddenly the last one week is making me think if all that is BullS_ _ _.

i feel like life is just passing by daily and i am just a spectator in my own life.. like some distant third person who is watching life and me go by... (exact feeling: remember dil ke raaste mein kaise thokar mai ne .. from Dil Chahta Hai?? Remember Aamir Khan with hands in his pockets standing on the pavement and all the traffic just zooming by him?? ditto feeling.. )

i am in a job (or rather occupation) which i am beginning not to like (hate would be a very strong word and i dont think i hate it yet). somewhere during the last one month it suddenly ceased to be exciting any more... and i dont have the guts to just say "to hell with it" and get the hell out of it before i get more and more depressed... so many risks (or rather uncertainities ..(yep..there is a huuuuge difference between both)).. am i ready to bear the consequences if something goes wrong??

actually i dont have a vision statement.. or a goal ( dont ask me the difference).. no goal as to where do i want to be four years down the lane?? (one year is already over so 5 minus 1 is 4) is it true that unless we have a goal we cant really achieve anything??? cant i really enjoy the route and not bother about my final destination??

one of my friend V, did his engineering at REC (or NIT).. and seems there was a guy in his class. he was the topper. and he got into MS BITS PILANI (i think.. V is it correct??).. but the guy knew that his heart was really not into it. he had a good voice and he loved singing songs.. so he chose singing as his career. i dont know how many of us would have been able to do that if we were in his place (not me atleast)..
V says there are very very very few people in this world who have what it takes to pursue their passion and convert it into their career. for all those poeple who did / are doing that i would say only one thing.. U are the most luckiest people of all...

is this a loser's way of dealing with the situation?? i dont knw.. i am still confused....
i have to get out of this attitude...

mummmyyy is the dinner ready???

Sunday, June 11, 2006

IMPACT!!!

hmmm. i am feeling guilty. a LOT guilty. its been over two weeks since my last post. not that i was busy riding a rickshaw throughout the nights to earn enough money to complete my education... its just that i was plain lazy and i was not at home for most of the weekend. so no posts.
last saturday, all of us (friends) went to Nagarjun Sagar, some 140km from Hyderabad. we had LOTS and LOTS of fun. strange that though all of us have been in Hyderabad for the past 3 years, only one of us visited the place in recent past... One of my friends bought a new car and so that was our mode of transport for the day..
we went on a boat ride to an island (forgot its name)..this island has a BEAUTIFUL museum.. consisting of all the treasure of artifacts that would have been washed away when the dam was built in that place. everyone needs to take a vacation atleast once in two months.. it does a loooottt of good. most of us were actually looking forward to going to the offfice.. can you believe it?

this saturday was our company's Corporate Social Responsibility day. its called Impact Day. the activities ranged from thanking the traffic police and MCH (Municipal Corporation of Hyderabad) to going to old age homes and Juvenile homes. its done every year.
my thread was called Street to Smart. there were about 110 members in this thread. and we went to three schools. Divya Disha (http://www.divyadisha.org/), Nav Jeevan and FFSC, a foster home for juvenile kids.
i went to Divya Disha. this is a school which provides education, food and shelter to kids. the age group of the kids is from 7 to 18 years. the kids who come here are from two backgrounds -- one who are lost / missing from homes and the other who are sold off by their parents / relatives. the whole point is to provide education to these kids. it is up to the kids to stay there and continue studying or just run away from there. almost 70% of the kids have stayed back to study, but the rest have run away from here.

i dont know how many of you have visited such schools. most of us who have visited these schools have a unanimous opinion. these kids are very very bright. all they need is for some one to show the RIGHT direction. i think the kids are very bright because they are street smart.... literally. they must have faced so many tough situations earlier (before joining the school), that they can tackle any kind of situation.
but i have also observed one thing. its each to their own here. i mean if my friend gets hurt or is unwell, i would be concerned. i would help her out. but these kids dont have this sense of belongingness.. may be because of their past or may be because of some other unknown reason. i really felt bad. deep down in their hearts they are still scared.. scared as to when they have to leave the place and move away in search of some work so as to feed their family. may be we are addressing only one half of the situation.. we need to instill the sense of togetherness among them.
i may be right, i may be wrong, but that was what i felt.